Sunday, July 11, 2004
Sunday is supposed to be happy but recently i jus cant feel anithin. NUMB, my heart's been frostbite. Nthing seems to be workin out at the moment. I cant sleep well, cant eat well & i jus dun feel well. What the HELL is happening to me, never been so emotional for a long time. I reali need a break from this life, all i want at the moment is escape to some place. Im on holiday but i NEED a HOLIDAY!!!
3 mths of shelf life left & im tryin to cherish every secs, hrs, days, mths before i expired. I need to look for something i can look forward to everyday. Rite now, its jus screwed up BORED. I haf been using this word "BORED" excessively, i think its starting to lose the meaning. I gotta check the dictionary for a new word!!! oh HELL
2day happens to be my grandma bday. Its good to c tat shes still healthy n well at the age of 68. I noe i haf been a unfilial boy, always nt visiting my grandma & great grandma. Hell i got no excuse for myself but im jus glad tat they still ard. Goin over their place always bring back memories of the time im still in diapers. haha i haf grown alot since den, its good to be back at the place where i grew up for 12 yrs. well had a bday cake for my grandma & went for dinnner but sadly i jus dun haf appetite to eat much. Im down with the sickness. Time to go in my corner & self pity.........