arghhh...im sick..approaching weekends & im down with a damn flu!! my nose being running running like a spoiled slurpee machine.... drip & drip...damn it..

well a lil updates on the happenings last week & this week. last week celebrated FABiO's 21st bday at ChinaBlack den the next day went to his chalet!!! had a crazy time with the LMC CreW...cant wait for mre.. tot i was dead high in chinablack & i mean super duper zuper HIGH!!! haha im embarrassed... den sunday we celebrate XiU BIRDday...yak xiu thanks for the treats & i tink u love ur presents dun U!! yes ladies n gentlemen, we got xiu a BRA n THONGS!!!! THONGS!!! geez i want 1 for me bday too!! haha ppl take note!!! im kidding ;)

then this week, had the unit retreat...it was sianzz.. i jus feel so tired the whole day...sleep mode on for the whole retreat...den now im sick..arghh!!! down down down down......i need to do somethin abt this feeling.....

If you see me walking on the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough towalk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..
Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catchyou,
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom,you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are no where,I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...
WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...
SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...
HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...
BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...
AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK..

Only One
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

like a blink of an eye, the year 2004 is over & today mark the 1st day of 2005. It was sad not to be able to part with '04 on a happy note. The south asia tsunami has change the life of thousands. its was a sad sad day for millions over the globe tat witness the devastation it brought. 'god' (if theres one) have mercy on the soul.

anyway personal, '04 has been a fruitful year for me. lots of things happen & im glad it did.. some of the milestone for '04.

• completed my tertiary education & graduated with a diploma(wonder wats next)
• join metropolitian YMCA for volunteering work(it was hell lot of FUN!!)
• found back a "lost" friend
• hang out more with my FRENMILY(the climbers, rowdees, fhame, azfar, mei & many more)
• the day i lost my pink IC & got it replace with a GREEN 11B
• enter & complete modified BMT in tekong M Coy(wat a waste of time)
• posted to NSSC, cmpb...vocation Admin Support Asst(yes im a fucking CLERK!!!)

basically this abt sum up my 2004, oh nt forgeting i went thru the year UNINJURE!!! thanz god...lets hope this new year gona be a goood goood 1.

My Reply
I got your letter and the poetry you sent me
Postmarked in december of last year
I really hope you're doing better
All of your friends close by your side
One step closer to recovery

I wish there was something i could say
To erase each and every page that you've been through
Even though its not my place to save you

I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note
Thats sealed with your last breath
I won't stand aside and listen to you give up

If you'll just hold on for one more second
Just hold on to what you have
If you'll just hold on, just hold on
You will wake up tommorrow

These arms remain stretched out to you
Maybe someday you'll accept them
Or maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that's long stopped beating

Wake up, wake up you've gotta believe
Wake up, wake up you cant give up
Time keeps going on without us
Long after we're dead and gone

I wish there was something i could say
To erase each and every page
You've been through
Even though its not my place to save you

I appreciate but can't accept this thank-you note
Thats sealed with your last breath
I won't stand aside and listen to you give up

If you'll just hold on for one more second
Just hold on to what you have
If you'll just hold on, just hold on
You will wake up tommorrow

Brother
Azfar
Gina