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Monday, April 04, 2005

Back here again, mourning the loss of my dear brudder. woke up today & the 1st thing i did was -sighz- it didnt turn out to be the weekend i expected it to be. Usually, we wld meet up on either one of these days fri, sat or sun but it didnt happen this week. It did but not what all of us would had wanted...

-sighz-

the heart is heavy, a million word cldnt describe my feelings rite now mayb there isnt a word i cld use to tell u how i feel. There is jus too many pieces of glass to pick up, everything shattered together but i know i haf to pick it up slowly, 1st Fhame 2nd my life+family+r/s 3rd work related shit. its gona take time & i know i will cut myself but i will still go on, life still move on.

was with Mai, Mei, Pearly, Xuan, Radiyah, Mazlan, Azfar earlier. we chill at starbucks, helpin each other go thru the loss of Fhame. it helps to be in a grp & talk abt it, i wld have go crazy goin thru this shit alone. we hanged ard until Radiyah gotta go off, she had other plans den xuan & pearly went off as well.

so the rest of us, mei, mai, lan, me & azfar went to have our dinner at simei eastpoint. After dinner we went to chill nearby & wait for mazlan to come back frm CGH. From den on, we sent mei back followed by mai. b4 we sent mazlan back, we decided to head down to Fhame's place to have a lil chat with his family.

so we were sitting there with his family & talking abt him. it was good to know that they r coping well & we jus have to let em know, fhame had a good bunch of friends who loved him alot. We were goin thru pic of the accident, discussing of What-Wld-Had den we were browsing thru some of Fhame BMT pics.

damn, he look good!!

images of him is still etched deeply in my mind. fresh images flash thru my head for the whole day, there isnt a single moment i can get him off my head. i jus miss the big man too much. there is jus so many things i wld like to share with him. im at a loss of words now...guess it time to rest.

shibby without the BIG 'F'