Saturday, September 24, 2005
she's everything all i ever wanted or is she what i made myself to believe. i dont know.
but what is clear to me now is,
i love her, every lil bits of her. her perfections of inperfections. nothing have ever felt like this before. nothing i ever felt has come stronger than this. im lost, loving her with everything i've got.
i enjoy every seconds of the time i spent with her. theres nothing i want to do without her. but always things doesnt seem as calm as the surface. theres is always something deeper, but it doesnt help if you find out more.
what i do know is theres a distraction in her life, if i can help it i would get it out myself but theres nothing more i can do but accept it. theres just something in life that u just have to finish. it will only felt finished when u done going thru it. so the saying goes, "if u let love go & it comes back then its meant to be".
im keeping my fingers crossed whn the day comes for me. i only wish i will be able to take whatevers gona come my way. i can promised to wait but so what if the bus doesnt comes back for me. should i go or should i stay. stay with the feeling that "what if its coming in 5 mins" or go on with my life & hoping something best comes next.
for now i want to hold on to my happiness and that happiness is u, ger.
its you.
Gina.