Saturday, December 17, 2005
this is so painful, i dont know how long i can endure this anymore. the medication dont seems to be working anymore. this pain is killing me. we used to do everything as one, we were inseparable and now i feel like i lost a piece of myself. u took it away the day u walk out of my life.
gone were the days we spend our weekends together. we see each other everyday of the week, not one day passed without u by my side and now i have to carry on living without u. the feeling of the empty space beside me whn i sleep and learning to do things on my own again. this is killing me. yes, u may said i was living fine b4 i have u but all this have now changed, cant u see!! not everythin is as naive as what u believe.
how much the past 6 mths means to me, no one will ever understand. this ache & emptiness in my heart, im not sure when this gona heal but u left a scar behind, to remind me of u. how can i ever forget the most happiest time of my life, i wish i could then mayb i wont feel the pain anymore. 啊 给我一杯忘情水
my days without u hasnt been as easy u tink it is, mayb it makes u feel better thinkin tat it is. i need a break from the world. i want a break from this world. i jus feel like stayin in this bottomless pit until i heal myself. i wanna be strong but i can only wish im. cant carry on this anymore, jus wish i can hold u one last time, stroke ur hair, gaze into ur eyes and tell u one last time how much i love u.
end my misery...............please....