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MOS was a BLAST!! shibby!! i went there with the whole gang of rowdees and then met up with my man azfar and mazlan. we let our hair loose the whole nite, partying like there was no tml for us. yeah! danced til my legs were hurting lol. think we were on the podium for hrs and we sweep all the rooms MOS has to offer. my $15 green were fully utilised!! and they said we are goin again this fri!! god help us all!! heres some pictures from last nite. No. 10 & No. 5, pre-show felki, No. 7 & No. 10 Chilling with No. 9 & No. 5 Me with the twin brothers No. 8 & No. 18 Here my ppl!! Johnny & Jesse Meet John, Johnny & Jesse
Monday, January 30, 2006
Where Do We Go From Here - Brian Mcknight "Love have run out of time, You said you'd always be mine, It's hard to believe that somehow we've grown apart, Why the way that things have been, It just make no sense, Was so unprepared for the way I feel inside" The following pictures was taken whn i was out with Bin & PJ for supper. PJ ordered a egg prata but after tat she added a tissue prata of her own(literally). I hope everyone enjoyed their tissue prata like she did. bon Appetite!
Sunday, January 29, 2006
My shattered dreams and broken heart Are mending on the shelf I saw you holding hands Standing close to someone else Now I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone I gave my best to you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry
One last cry Before I leave it all behind I gotta put you out of my mind this time Stop living a lie I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry.....
I was here You were there Guess we never could agree While the sun shines on you I need some love to rain on me Still I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone Gotta get over you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry
One last cry Before I leave it all behind I goota put you out of my mind For the very last time Been living a lie I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down I guess I'm down... I guess I'm down... To my last cry...
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Its the hardest thing, letting go of someone u loved. i did my wrongs and pay my dues. i hope i have learned and u would forgive me. it was a heavy price, i paid and if its like the old saying goes: i hope it will be sweeter the second time around, if theres any chance.
here another story learned, i apologise for my flaws and i wish u happy and me too. its like learning to walk again, picking yourself up when u fall. i thank you for all the sweet memories and all that we shared. its time i go and i end this with my last drop of tears for u. sweet happiness and bitter sorrows. thanks for being the one for me.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
These last few weeks I've been confused sometimes I wonder if I'm better off alone.
You fall in love then break your heart. you fall in love again it's never ending.
I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it really kind of sucks
So here I am grown up at 22 will someone tell me what it takes to be happy?
maybe I'll meet that special girl along the way then she'll break my heart and leave me crying.
I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it's not worth it I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it really kind of...
I used to make the light shine for you, The sun has left my sky. Velvet walls surround my sorrows, I've sacrificed my pride.
I've laid myself to sleep tonight I know you've played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away, A shattered memory that you would stay. Through thick and thin with me, You're giving up on me.
I know! (I know!) You'll never change! I won't be good enough for you. I know! (I know!) You'll make it through, I'll never be around to see.
You're giving up on me.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
im feeling so emo now, and this song is exactly how i feel.
yesterday my counseller ask me some questions that hit me real hard. some goood deep questions, i personally havnt thought abt before. he asked me what are the core, most important r/s in ur life now? and what is it to be a good son/brother/friend/lover? i sat there for 5 minutes, my mind was blank. i didnt think i have an ans. i guess i have to dig in real deep to find it within me. seems to me, i have been takin alot of things in my life for granted. he said if i can find the ans, then everythin in my life would be clearer. hmmzz guess its time for some reflections huh.
nowadays it just feel so cold, rain or shine, its still feel tat way. well, its just me, someday im fine and someday im just not. its a vicious cycle that i have been goin thru the past 1 month plus. im cold now, like the river that froze during the winter and guess its gona be a long winter for me. mayb i've been hurt more than i hurt anyone, well it surely feels that way.
the way it feels now, im like a piece of charcoal, the pain is like the slow burning flame and when the breeze in the cold windy night passes by, the pain intensify like the flame. ouch its jus hurts so much sometimes. douse me with water will ya? gently..
i wish i can make u share the hurt... burn me alive now or drown me
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, Just a few drags to go. You built me up And you broke me down, Somehow.
Everything just seemed so clear to me Nothing left to know. I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, Right now.
How can you say, That it's too late To save us now
And I would wait for you, ooh If you would wait for me, yeah. I will wait for you, ooh if you will wait for me, yeah.
Intoxicated the edge is serrated, So easily torn from the core. I blushed the first time, But you blushed the last time My eyes hit your mind Regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore You built me up and you broke me down This time.
And I would wait for you, ooh If you would wait for me, yeah. I will wait for you, ooh if you will wait for me, yeah.
How can you say, That its too late To save us now? (How can you say)
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Pictures of C31D, New Years Gathering '06" lynn, bidin, ash, teo, monica, chee, shish, fauzi notice the apparition in both of the pictures above!! phantom sighted in JB.
Well - me, these days I just miss you - it's the nights that I go insane Unless you're coming back for me That's one thing I know that won't change It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart It's hard letting you go
Monday, January 09, 2006
Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you've been needing to hear I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
Sunday, January 08, 2006
this was in my head, a few days back. so i thought i get it down.
it still leaves a sting when i think abt it yes, like u had said, it was sudden i wasnt expecting it to end, not that way at least u move on real fast, so far away now i feel like a stranger to u now
u apologise for the hurt u caused me for someone who dont believe in apologies how much it meant for u to say "sorry" but a million apologies cant take this pain away
today this pop up in my head, im lost. pls dont fuck with my head.
the msg u sent me last nite im supposed to be the one who send it to u weeks ago all those time i was non-existence to u, only i know if i had forgotten everything abt us, i wouldnt be goin thru this pain how much u know of my feelings? none the words here can only express my feelings to an extent feel my heart, take it i dont know if u expect something from me i dont know what u would want from me are u expecting something?
I never wanted the stars I never shot for the moon I like them right where they are All I wanted was you So baby just turn away Because I can't face the truth All I'm trying to say Is all I wanted was you
Friday, January 06, 2006
Every day just seems so long Every minute that I'm here without you Will tomorrow ever come Will I ever get a chance to feel you I need you so much You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close I hear you cough I feel you fall But you're out of reach
Another room I can't hide Another night without you here beside me Cause I don't want to fake it I'm just trying to make it yeah I need you so much You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close
All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
A picture tells a story and this playlist, it tells u my feeling.
its been a month now, im here without u. i just want u to know, i feel so incomplete. since u been gone, i hate myself for losing u. i feel the purest of pain every night but love aint here anymore. the ghost of u and me haunt me every night. i can only be 安静 and tonight i wanna cry. somebody give me a cup of 忘情水. i know its 我的错, thats why u go away. i wish u come back for good but it will be against all odds. i wish we could start back at one but im learning to let go slowly. whereever u will go, i be walking after u in my heart. goodbye my lover, i hope i will be alright tonight. i just dont wanna be lonely no more.
I should have seen it coming when roses died Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes I should have listened when you said good night You really meant good bye Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall But only fools are "know-it-alls" and I played that fool for you
I cried and I cried There were nights that died for you baby I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time Like we got away with the perfect crime but We were just a legend in my mind I guess that I was blind Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade You and I were the renegades, some things never change
It made me so mad 'cause I wanted it bad for us baby Now it's so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I've cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
I cried and I cried There were nights that I died for you baby I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy
If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't no love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
Sunday, January 01, 2006
When the world had nowhere to run Or how to hide I've been watching the world as it passes by Trying to climb but I just can't find my feet But I still believe Doesn't matter what life you lead Or the love you need Lost in the world as it passes by Trying to smile but you just can't hide your tears Do you still believe
I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams
Cause I only wanna let you know how I feel Watching the love as it passes by Trying to smile but I just can't hide my tears But I still believe
Floating on your own star They always seems to make you hot I put it back together once again Once again Once again
I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams Floating on your own star
MOS was a BLAST!! shibby!! i went there with the whole gang of rowdees and then met up with my man azfar and mazlan. we let our hair loose the whole nite, partying like there was no tml for us. yeah! danced til my legs were hurting lol. think we were on the podium for hrs and we sweep all the rooms MOS has to offer. my $15 green were fully utilised!! and they said we are goin again this fri!! god help us all!! heres some pictures from last nite. No. 10 & No. 5, pre-show felki, No. 7 & No. 10 Chilling with No. 9 & No. 5 Me with the twin brothers No. 8 & No. 18 Here my ppl!! Johnny & Jesse Meet John, Johnny & Jesse
Monday, January 30, 2006
Where Do We Go From Here - Brian Mcknight "Love have run out of time, You said you'd always be mine, It's hard to believe that somehow we've grown apart, Why the way that things have been, It just make no sense, Was so unprepared for the way I feel inside" The following pictures was taken whn i was out with Bin & PJ for supper. PJ ordered a egg prata but after tat she added a tissue prata of her own(literally). I hope everyone enjoyed their tissue prata like she did. bon Appetite!
Sunday, January 29, 2006
My shattered dreams and broken heart Are mending on the shelf I saw you holding hands Standing close to someone else Now I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone I gave my best to you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry
One last cry Before I leave it all behind I gotta put you out of my mind this time Stop living a lie I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry.....
I was here You were there Guess we never could agree While the sun shines on you I need some love to rain on me Still I sit all alone Wishing all my feelings was gone Gotta get over you Nothing for me to do But have one last cry
One last cry Before I leave it all behind I goota put you out of my mind For the very last time Been living a lie I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down I guess I'm down... I guess I'm down... To my last cry...
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Its the hardest thing, letting go of someone u loved. i did my wrongs and pay my dues. i hope i have learned and u would forgive me. it was a heavy price, i paid and if its like the old saying goes: i hope it will be sweeter the second time around, if theres any chance.
here another story learned, i apologise for my flaws and i wish u happy and me too. its like learning to walk again, picking yourself up when u fall. i thank you for all the sweet memories and all that we shared. its time i go and i end this with my last drop of tears for u. sweet happiness and bitter sorrows. thanks for being the one for me.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
These last few weeks I've been confused sometimes I wonder if I'm better off alone.
You fall in love then break your heart. you fall in love again it's never ending.
I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it really kind of sucks
So here I am grown up at 22 will someone tell me what it takes to be happy?
maybe I'll meet that special girl along the way then she'll break my heart and leave me crying.
I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it's not worth it I guess I'm giving up on love 'cause it really kind of...
I used to make the light shine for you, The sun has left my sky. Velvet walls surround my sorrows, I've sacrificed my pride.
I've laid myself to sleep tonight I know you've played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away, A shattered memory that you would stay. Through thick and thin with me, You're giving up on me.
I know! (I know!) You'll never change! I won't be good enough for you. I know! (I know!) You'll make it through, I'll never be around to see.
You're giving up on me.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
im feeling so emo now, and this song is exactly how i feel.
yesterday my counseller ask me some questions that hit me real hard. some goood deep questions, i personally havnt thought abt before. he asked me what are the core, most important r/s in ur life now? and what is it to be a good son/brother/friend/lover? i sat there for 5 minutes, my mind was blank. i didnt think i have an ans. i guess i have to dig in real deep to find it within me. seems to me, i have been takin alot of things in my life for granted. he said if i can find the ans, then everythin in my life would be clearer. hmmzz guess its time for some reflections huh.
nowadays it just feel so cold, rain or shine, its still feel tat way. well, its just me, someday im fine and someday im just not. its a vicious cycle that i have been goin thru the past 1 month plus. im cold now, like the river that froze during the winter and guess its gona be a long winter for me. mayb i've been hurt more than i hurt anyone, well it surely feels that way.
the way it feels now, im like a piece of charcoal, the pain is like the slow burning flame and when the breeze in the cold windy night passes by, the pain intensify like the flame. ouch its jus hurts so much sometimes. douse me with water will ya? gently..
i wish i can make u share the hurt... burn me alive now or drown me
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, Just a few drags to go. You built me up And you broke me down, Somehow.
Everything just seemed so clear to me Nothing left to know. I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, Right now.
How can you say, That it's too late To save us now
And I would wait for you, ooh If you would wait for me, yeah. I will wait for you, ooh if you will wait for me, yeah.
Intoxicated the edge is serrated, So easily torn from the core. I blushed the first time, But you blushed the last time My eyes hit your mind Regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore You built me up and you broke me down This time.
And I would wait for you, ooh If you would wait for me, yeah. I will wait for you, ooh if you will wait for me, yeah.
How can you say, That its too late To save us now? (How can you say)
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Pictures of C31D, New Years Gathering '06" lynn, bidin, ash, teo, monica, chee, shish, fauzi notice the apparition in both of the pictures above!! phantom sighted in JB.
Well - me, these days I just miss you - it's the nights that I go insane Unless you're coming back for me That's one thing I know that won't change It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart It's hard letting you go
Monday, January 09, 2006
Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words you've been needing to hear I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
Sunday, January 08, 2006
this was in my head, a few days back. so i thought i get it down.
it still leaves a sting when i think abt it yes, like u had said, it was sudden i wasnt expecting it to end, not that way at least u move on real fast, so far away now i feel like a stranger to u now
u apologise for the hurt u caused me for someone who dont believe in apologies how much it meant for u to say "sorry" but a million apologies cant take this pain away
today this pop up in my head, im lost. pls dont fuck with my head.
the msg u sent me last nite im supposed to be the one who send it to u weeks ago all those time i was non-existence to u, only i know if i had forgotten everything abt us, i wouldnt be goin thru this pain how much u know of my feelings? none the words here can only express my feelings to an extent feel my heart, take it i dont know if u expect something from me i dont know what u would want from me are u expecting something?
I never wanted the stars I never shot for the moon I like them right where they are All I wanted was you So baby just turn away Because I can't face the truth All I'm trying to say Is all I wanted was you
Friday, January 06, 2006
Every day just seems so long Every minute that I'm here without you Will tomorrow ever come Will I ever get a chance to feel you I need you so much You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close I hear you cough I feel you fall But you're out of reach
Another room I can't hide Another night without you here beside me Cause I don't want to fake it I'm just trying to make it yeah I need you so much You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close You're out of reach You're out of reach but you're so close
All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
A picture tells a story and this playlist, it tells u my feeling.
its been a month now, im here without u. i just want u to know, i feel so incomplete. since u been gone, i hate myself for losing u. i feel the purest of pain every night but love aint here anymore. the ghost of u and me haunt me every night. i can only be 安静 and tonight i wanna cry. somebody give me a cup of 忘情水. i know its 我的错, thats why u go away. i wish u come back for good but it will be against all odds. i wish we could start back at one but im learning to let go slowly. whereever u will go, i be walking after u in my heart. goodbye my lover, i hope i will be alright tonight. i just dont wanna be lonely no more.
I should have seen it coming when roses died Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes I should have listened when you said good night You really meant good bye Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall But only fools are "know-it-alls" and I played that fool for you
I cried and I cried There were nights that died for you baby I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time Like we got away with the perfect crime but We were just a legend in my mind I guess that I was blind Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade You and I were the renegades, some things never change
It made me so mad 'cause I wanted it bad for us baby Now it's so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I've cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
I cried and I cried There were nights that I died for you baby I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy
If the love that I got for you is gone If the river I cried ain't that long Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't no love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong Is the reason that I'm holding on Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song Yes, I'm wrong, yeah, I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
Sunday, January 01, 2006
When the world had nowhere to run Or how to hide I've been watching the world as it passes by Trying to climb but I just can't find my feet But I still believe Doesn't matter what life you lead Or the love you need Lost in the world as it passes by Trying to smile but you just can't hide your tears Do you still believe
I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams
Cause I only wanna let you know how I feel Watching the love as it passes by Trying to smile but I just can't hide my tears But I still believe
Floating on your own star They always seems to make you hot I put it back together once again Once again Once again
I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams I still believe That we can live together in a land of broken dreams I still believe We can put us together and pray for all our hopes and dreams Floating on your own star
