Saturday, January 14, 2006
yesterday my counseller ask me some questions that hit me real hard. some goood deep questions, i personally havnt thought abt before. he asked me what are the core, most important r/s in ur life now? and what is it to be a good son/brother/friend/lover? i sat there for 5 minutes, my mind was blank. i didnt think i have an ans. i guess i have to dig in real deep to find it within me. seems to me, i have been takin alot of things in my life for granted. he said if i can find the ans, then everythin in my life would be clearer. hmmzz guess its time for some reflections huh.
nowadays it just feel so cold, rain or shine, its still feel tat way. well, its just me, someday im fine and someday im just not. its a vicious cycle that i have been goin thru the past 1 month plus. im cold now, like the river that froze during the winter and guess its gona be a long winter for me. mayb i've been hurt more than i hurt anyone, well it surely feels that way.
the way it feels now, im like a piece of charcoal, the pain is like the slow burning flame and when the breeze in the cold windy night passes by, the pain intensify like the flame. ouch its jus hurts so much sometimes. douse me with water will ya? gently..
i wish i can make u share the hurt... burn me alive now or drown me